I have been thinking of David Byrne's 'we're on the road to no where,' there's a city in my mind, come along and take a ride and it's all right, baby it's all right.... But, all does not seem quite right just yet. I think I've had one solid night sleep in the last three weeks. Otherwise, I am awake for 1 or 1:30 until 4 or so and then I'm up again by 6. What am I forgetting to do at work before I go? Am I as prepared as i need to be for the kids' schooling? I took two sick days this week and just slept, exhausted. Once, a few of us were taking a friend to union station to take the Amtrak back to Connecticut. I don't remember if we missed her train or we were just whimsical, or both, but we ended up driving her all the way home to Connecticut, playing that same David Byrne cassette, over and over... Yes, it's very far away but it's growing day by day and it's all right, baby it's all right. I am the worst with remembering lyrics; I just make the up as I need to. But, that's how i remember that song, that endless cassette. These European cities are very far way but they're growing day by day and it's all right, baby it's all right. I've gotta download that.
I went to get some euros from my bank today, just to have some cash in my pocket when we land. I asked for $150 worth of euros, knowing I'd eat some costs at the bank. The teller kept telling me I'd get 116 dollars in euros. No, I'll get 116 euros, I kept saying just to keep the conversation going. She is preetty sure I'll get 116 dollars in euros, sounds like a slippery slope to no cash given the value of a dollar compared to euros but, who knows, maybe Bank of America does own the world and has a special dollar euro I can have.
Henry has started stacking up crap to put in his suitcase. Doodle books and weird rulers and a huge three ring binder. I told him I'm in charge of whatever gets packed ultimately. I've really got to stand firm on this because these kids follow the packing motto of ther dad, "we might need this one day."
And so the preparation goes. Hotels and bill paying and medicines to pack and making list of emergency numbers in major European cities. How much geometry will Henry be expected to know by December 1? Will Coco really learn sentence structure and poetic formats from me? Should Coco bring her two Bearies and Henry his beloved Lambie or will the risk outweigh the guaranteed comfort? What shoes will I bring?? It's not the shoes that make me consider getting zzzzzzzquil, it's this endless series of questions roaming my mind. We paid out the air tickets, train tickets, most of the lodging costs tis week. Poof, out of savings and into this ether I hear will be a trip of our lifetimes. I almost googled "anxiety attack" yesterday.
I've got to relax in the adventure of it, the unknowns and the unplannables.